movies that made me want to become a filmmaker
My mother died when I was 11 and my father, who had not cried at her funeral (noticed by me and friends to my shame) had a strict curfew for my younger brother and me. But sometimes, when there was an old movie on TV that would go until...
Invite-Only Playlist by Ken Burns
My mother died when I was 11 and my father, who had not cried at her funeral (noticed by me and friends to my shame) had a strict curfew for my younger brother and me. But sometimes, when there was an old movie on TV that would go until one or two o'clock in the morning ON A SCHOOL NIGHT, or an old silent or New Wave film at the retrospective Cinema Guild in Ann Arbor, where we were living -- trying to survive our loss -- or a film at the Ann Arbor Film Festival, I could stay up or go out. It was thrilling, just him and I. One night, at home, we watched Sir Carol Reed's Odd Man Out, with James Mason, about the IRA and the Troubles in Ireland. And my father cried. I instantly understood...and forgave him. Film had provided him a safe harbor, a place where emotions could be expressed when perhaps the closer ones of losing a wife to ten years of a merciless disease were...too close. I instantly understood, and vowed, at age twelve, that I would be a filmmaker. Film seem to be the place to find expression for the inexpressible, a way to soothe and ease the pain of life. It's been that for me in my own work. I even think of what I do as an emotional archeology, straining to listen to the ghosts and echoes of a wise past. And though my own journey has taken many unexpected paths, I have been - since that moment - curious about the odd assortment of influences, utterly individual to each individual, that drove them to become filmmakers.
Playlist image by Kat Card Gz